My Drummer Boy

I watched Noah as he slowly walked towards the school building, heading for his first class of the day, Band. Band is one of his favorite classes, he gets to beat on a drum. My little drummer boy.

It was sad to watch his slow walk. Overall, Noah does not like school, the reason is simple, Noah does not think that school likes him. He walks like a prisoner resigned to the gallows. My heart wrenches for him. He looks so alone. I don’t want him to feel the way he looks. At the same time, I am terribly proud of him. It was his decision to attend public school, versus home schooling. He goes despite the obvious dread.

In all the times I have dropped him off at school his step has never changed. He is never excited to be there. The reminds me of this every day when I wake him to get ready to go. “I don’t want to go to school,” He says, and I say, “I know.” Yet, every day he gets up, gets ready, and makes that sad, heart-breaking walk to the school building. Once upon a time he used to turn and look back to see if I was still there, he no longer does. Now he walks as one all alone, knowing that he is alone, and somewhat fearful of what the day will have in store for him. My heart is with him in all his fear and loneliness. I can’t wait to come back and pick him up.

“How was your day, Noah?”

Published in: Uncategorized on July 26, 2025 at 8:22 PM  Leave a Comment  
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Shunned

What happens when a special needs child sees one of his fellow students do something that causes those around to laugh. In Noah’s case he thinks the act done by his fellow student makes him popular with his peers. That means it’s something to be mimicked, even if it is inappropriate.  Noah may not be aware of the meaning of the act, or in some cases a phrase. Noah may repeat the phrase or mimic the act, and if it doesn’t result in the desired or hoped for response, he will do it over and over, hoping for that popular reaction or recognition, and acceptance by his peers. Noah, of course, has no idea why no one is laughing, he just keeps trying anyway, until someone complains. Eventually Noah is shunned for his behavior. Noah has no idea why he’s in trouble for something that others were applauded for. He has no idea why he is now being shunned by those that he just wants as friends.

Noah doesn’t understand, and it’s easier to shun than to explain. Society has been shunning special needs children for eons. It’s easy, everyone does it. Just tell them to go away, you don’t want to be friends with them. Parents tell their kids to stay away from them, they’re dangerous, don’t play with them. They will go so far as to tell the parents of a special needs child to keep their child away from their child. They don’t want to help the child understand what is not appropriate, they just want you to keep your child away from theirs.

My neighbor is that way. We were called, after 10 pm, and informed that our child behaved inappropriately with theirs and that they don’t want Noah around their child anymore. Noah won’t understand, but he will know that he behaved wrongly and won’t know why. He’ll be terribly sorry, sad, and disappointed. Mostly he just won’t understand why he can’t continue to play with their child. Why shunned? How do you explain to any child, let alone a special needs child why they are being shunned?

It’s easy to just shun a child.

Published in: Uncategorized on July 13, 2025 at 11:07 PM  Leave a Comment  
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